it's difficult to be a better me. it's difficult to try to right some wrongs. it's difficult to only see the best in everyone. but i will try my best to do so. at least for a start, i will learn to tolerate. my tolerence level has been declining to a all-new low level and i can feel myself on the verge of snapping at every occassion possible.

i hate it when people do things that upset me. i hate it when people make senseless judgements or comments. i hate it when people gets vulgar on social media platforms. i hate it when people can't agree with me. that's why i'm angsty almost every day. but i will slowly change. and for a start, i will treat people around me better. i will be more patient, i will be more trusting, i will be less skeptical. i want to be a better person. i have no idea what happened to me. but if i'm unhappy with every single person out there, then it's bound to be my problem, and not others.

anyway, i know my birthday is coming and some of you are wondering what to get for me. i guess the best 21st birthday gift is to have everyone i love around me! it's not fair if i'm eyeing something expensive but refusing to part with my money and get you guys to buy it for me just because it's my birthday right? i'm already feeling bad for telling minyu about the mp3 i want. you guys can draw me nice birthday cards! i will keep them! i don't need expensive gifts. i'd rather spend the money at a place with fabulous food with an awesome bunch of people!

looking forward to the removal of my braces haha. 11june! :)

since i'm waiting for miss ripley to load, i figure i can do some blogging!

can't believe special semester is gonna be over soon. lab has been awfully fun these few weeks and honestly, had it not been for the fact that i need to go for attachment next month, i would have opt to take special semester 2 too. and i cannot make up my mind if i want to do four or five modules next sem.. probably four bah. 3 chem mods and 1 math mod? ahhh. shall decide again next month.

a bit worried about starting the attachment. i will privatize my twitter and blog by then cause it's not very nice to have students digging up bits and pieces of my private life, particularly my immature and vulgar past hahaha. not that i'm not like that now..hey, i'm not like that now!

recently, i chanced upon the facebook statuses of two individuals. they are in my facebook friends list and they are well, educators. i'm not sure how social networking sites affect the tolerance level of people but it seems to me that educators now are incapable of tolerance and do not hide their emotions. thing is, they accept students as facebook friends, yet do not hesitate to speak their minds with regards to some issues about their students. i'm not sure if you guys feel the way i feel but i find it quite unacceptable for educators to post their opinions of their students online. my teachers never do that and i don't see why any educator should. unhappy with their grades? unhappy with their assignments? unhappy with their lack of willingness to learn? keep it to yourself. what's the point of sharing them on facebook and inviting comments from friends who are non-educators? comments that may unknowingly hurt students who read them? i am not the student, and i can feel this way. what about students who read them?

i don't believe in using degrading words on students' work. "Rubbish" is never a word to describe students' work. it buries all the effort put in by the students. ever looked at it from another angle? students write nonsensical answers because of educators who told them "no matter what you do, just do not leave blanks at all. writing something is better than writing nothing." students write nonsensical answers because they are at their wits' end and are just struggling to grab hold of any piece of information that may give them a bit of credit. that is rubbish..?

i didn't want to talk about this today but because i was mentioning it to a friend today. sort of got me a little worked up. i can't respect people who disregard efforts of students. no matter how smart you are as an individual or an educator, your way of handling issues is really not what an educator should do.

ahhhh haven't been updating..

results are out today and after su-ing the geog mod, my cap is more or less the same as last sem. i'm gonna work very hard next sem and if i still cannot hit 3.5, then i will just accept that i am not so capable.

nope, not unhappy about it or what. well, everyone has his or her own ability. yes, my interest in chem is very strong. but i would rather learn more things and gain knowledge rather than doing research and finding out the unknown. i like facts that are presented to me, so perhaps honours year is really not for me because research is not something i enjoy. but, i would still rather i get above 3.5 for cap because this will prove that i qualify to continue to honours year. haha it's about pride i guess?

but i'm not gonna think so much for the moment cause really, the grades are out, and the only thing left to do is accept and work hard. i am very accepting of my chem grades as i have anticipated them. it's the malay mod that makes me feel a little disappointed i guess. ahh electives always ruin me haha. ok, got to sleep. lab tomorrow. :)

oh finally got to meet up with jiaqi, xiaolin and tang. it's always comforting to see people who don't change. outside and inside. for staying the way you guys are, thanks. :)

no idea why the lighting is so good hahahahaha i look so fair hor hor hor hahahhahahha!


went out with yiting and simin and mians yesterday! :) always feel very happy to go out with them cause there's good food hahahahahaha! had pizza yesterday but the highlight was the chocolate molten lava cake! yiting was trying to take picture of how the molten lava will ooze out and i was so stressed about the cutting
HAHAHAHA! ok so when the oozing starts, all of us were like "wahhhh so nice omg"..so funny!

ok going out to get some stuffs. will update again when im free! :)

So apt! Raining now!


Had nandos chicken and mcdonalds tiramisu mcflurry for dinner and im so full now! The mcflurry is real good albeit a bit too sweet that it gives me phelgm! :( Turning in early since im waking up to practise swimming tmr!

Weather has been so humid these days. Seriously, i bath fifteen min before i sleep now. I don't use to do that but the humidity is driving me crazy. Yes, when i went bangkok, the weather was crazily hot at 39 degree celsius but at least it wasn't humid. And my hand has been reeking of acetone because i did not use gloves when doing experiments and cleaning. Serve me right yes. Washed my hands with soap almost ten times and the smell still lingers omg. I will wear gloves for every single experiment from now on. K, lab tomorrow, nights all.

Lab tomorrow again! This week feels a bit packed! Prob eating dinner outside on tues, dimsum buffet with buffet kakis on wed, meeting simin and yiting on thurs.. Ahhh and prob swimming w chrys and mians on thurs too! So busy ahhhhhh hahahhaha will i have time for report omg hahaha.

But so far, i'm enjoying my hols! Next show i'm gna watch is love rain, then followed by the taiwan's version of jue dui da ling. And and and by then, jae's new show would have started! Awwwwww.. Hahahaha!



PaGhreyJae! Elephant in thailand named aft jae since he loves elephants so much haha! PaGhrey means most beautiful male elephant if i'm not wrong heh heh.

And omg i must say that chinese fans are really rich. The amount of money they spend to buy things for their idols is beyond imagination. I saw one weibo post where this girl bought expensive herbs to send it over and there are instructions on how to prepare and how it is good for people who stay up late, smoke and drink. Like wow. And omg, other fans are very kua zhang also! Prada, gucci, hermes bags and wallets.. Like omgbbqwth?! Seriously, i doubt he will use all of them please! Why will he change wallets so often? Still, this paragraph is just to emphasize how rich jae's fans are hahahhahah.

Ok time to get back in shape after hiatus for so long! Jogging/swimming, here i come! And im gonna learn roller blade! Shall source for a pair of good roller blades! :)

Swimming lesson was pretty good today! But can't seem to float very well. Am i like too heavy hahahhaha.

Three weeks to get back in shape! Go go huishan! :)

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More excited for his new movie than his new show hahaha jaejoong fighting! :)