come back for a quick update!

did a 10km run today and i feel awwwwwwwwwwesome HAHAHAHAHA. and nowadays, xingying has been going jogging with me! oh did i mention i pierced 2 more earholes?

and the hunger game is showing soon! everyone should go read the book. i almost cried when i'm reading the book. sigh. it's a trilogy so people, i have the pdf file! whatsapp me if you want the pdf version of the book! :)

:( i missed the leap year posting! doing my lab report and i feel like coming here to blog and de-stress! not that i'm under tons of stress, but yup, just to update a little about my boring life. oh, i got back my health report! so i'm of acceptable weight (though i feel like i can lose a teeny wheeny bit more of weight), my HDL is very high and my LDL is low! my overall cholesterol level and glucose level are low too. ahhhhh the joy of being healthy!

so right now, my aim is to stay healthy! for the past one week, i have been drinking milk to build up calcium. 1000mg a day is so difficult to attained! i'm just hoping to get at least 500mg a day. and of course, fruits and vegetables, at least two litres of water and less fried food! i feel happier knowing that i'm exercising and cutting down on certain food intake because i want to stay healthy and not because i'm obssessed with weight loss. so yup, i'm really happier now.

the past week has been really awesome. i thought through a lot of things. for years, i've been living under my sister's shadow. it's time to be myself. sometimes i'll be wondering how my sister is skinnier than me, smarter than me, prettier than me, bakes better than me, and that makes me unhappy. but no more of this anymore. she's my sister, and i love her a lot. i used to stress myself because i wanna perform as well as her. i'm afraid of how people will look at me if i graduate with a bachelor but my sister graduates with an honours. but really, that's just me and my own ego. that's just me and my inferiority. that's just me and my self-consciousness. for 21 years, part of me was living as someone else. now, it's time to be myself again! :) hello, huishan.

ahhhh feels good to say all these. now it's back to my lab report!

un-privatised my twitter! To all you stalkers out there, you guys can now view my twitter hahaha! ok, just kidding about the stalking part. i un-privatised it because.. initially, twitter was supposed to be an outlet for me to angst and emo. but now that my life is happier and that i am more contented with what i'm having now, i do not want to emo or be angsty anymore. so i decide to un-privatise to remind myself that i cannot affect other people's mood! of course, with the un-privatisation, it means there are more self-censorship. :)

All along, there was no external pressure for me to do well. my mum and dad don't give my siblings and i any pressure. they just hope that we can get a degree and lead a life better than theirs. Really, i give myself too much pressure. right now, all i want to do is to understand chemistry, and not to compete my grades against the others. i just wanna have a good health, be happier and have all my friends around me. cause life is really too short for me to waste it like that. there are so many things out there for me to explore. what happened to my dream of opening my own cafe or to tour the world? this time, i'm determined to make myself happier.

So proud of myself for not giving in to a few temptations! :)

I am so motivated to lose weight now. okok, 5kg by my birthday! Please continue to be my motivation, kim junsu!

I don't mean to harbour thoughts like this. it's just that, i feel a little left out?

taking 196 from nus back to bedok. yeah, it's gonna be a long long ride. long enough for me to finish a chapter of organic chem, i hope? hahaha. finally the love for it has rekindled a little, so i hope the flame won't be put out so soon. getting a little sleepy actually, but i will persevere and not sleep on the bus! :)

have been listening to dbsk's toki wo tomete on repeat today. really beautiful voices, really makes me wanna tear. eternity is such a big word to promise. Too much for people to handle. will my future other half walk me to eternity?