Really, i can't help but wonder why is it so difficult to be happy. why is it so difficult to get what i want. why is it so difficult to have someone there. why is it so difficult to have a listening ear. why is it so difficult to be understood, to get my point across?

Don't know what's gotten into me. maybe it's cause i can't do my tutorial. really, the angst in me keeps building up. i can't keep going on like this. part of me is pissed off at the fact that i emailed these 2 people to ask them if they wanna group with this girl and i for the gem proj and those 2 are the ones who posted on forum claiming they need a group and can't even reply me fast enough. i mean, if u have grps alrdy, the least u could do is to reply me that u have a group right? urgh. the angst. im seriously annoyed.