times like this, call for the need to pierce my ear.

actually, it's not a need. it's vanity. wanted to get nose piercing, but i'm too afraid of the pain, and the scar.

this month's PMS seems to be a bit harder to overcome than previous months. i don't know why i'm behaving like this. i'm hate being wary of others' good intentions. i know people are genuinely concerned, but i can't help but feel that they have ulterior motives. is that an illness? intentionally trying to change the way i am. is that abnormal too?

i want to tell someone and have someone understand me. but why is it that tears come out before the words, lips tremble before opening them?